Life Through The Lens: Cure For Sadness

The other day, I put some time aside and decided to write a great about me page.  I am not a very good writer, so it took me awhile to write it.  I concentrated on writing a little about myself as well as my blog’s mission and what I don’t my blog to become.  I put a lot of work into my page.  If you have time, please check it out.

Anyways, I wrote about my illness-condition-disease- what ever you call it but I am sick and will be for the rest of my life.  It could be worse I know but it takes a big toll on my family and I, dealing with what we deal with daily.  I wouldn’t have been able to get through as much as I did if I didn’t have such an amazing & caring husband & 5 awesome kids.  I wrote about how excited I was that I didn’t need to be hospitalized in 2013 at all (YAY me!!) and was hoping that 2014 was hospital  free, well overnight  free.  But that wish popped today…….of course I was sad & upset when the Dr told me the best option is for another surgery.  I have had around 10 (and no stretching I’m exaggerating it) or more over the last 10 yrs, tons & tons of testing (of all kinds), & numerous procedures done.

I left in tears, feeling like such a baby.  For over a month, close to two, I have been having back pain.  It started in front and moved to the back.  To make a long story short, I went to get checked after it wasn’t going away and has been so painful, it was effecting my life.  I thought I had a simple kidney infection, give me medicine, and on my way I would go.  But NOPE.  They did a CT scan and found kidney stones in my left kidney, one was 1.1cm and the other one was 1mm super small.  Today I went to see the Urologist and I find out that the stone is  a little bigger than it was last week (I had an x-ray done before my appt) and I have 7 1mm stone in my right kidney.  He looked at older reports and finds that I have had this stone in the same spot since 2011.  He said there are 3 options but the best one, the one he recommended was surgery with 1-2 nights overnight.  He told me about the surgery & having tubes put in & a stent in my kidney.  As I was walking out, I was so upset.  I know this isn’t a major medical thing but after how much I have been through it is very upsetting because I thought for sure no more hospital stays….After dealing with a chronic illness, hearing something like this is hard to take because I am afraid of what comes after……the pain…….the throwing up……..the extreme migraines for almost a week……..It’s just awful.  I live with pain almost everyday of my life.  I have learned to deal with it because I had no choice but to deal with it.  But the pain that comes after the surgery is overwhelming and I know what’s ahead.  And I’ve already got my date in 3 weeks on March 19th and hopefully I will recover fast.

At home, I told the kids and they were sad.  Alyssa decided the best way to fix that is doing a photo shoot with her and her cute faces.  She knows how much I like my pics and thought it would cheer me up.  She was exactly right because it did.  She’s such a cutey pie.  So what’s the best way to cure sadness, is having Alyssa as my daughter…….to have her care about her mother the way she did, at such a young age.  Don’t you agree, that’s the best cure?  What’s you cure for your sad times, your sadness?

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10 responses to “Life Through The Lens: Cure For Sadness

  • Jill Foley

    She’s adorable. I agree that kids – especially our own – are a great cure for sadness. I’m so sorry you are facing another surgery and hospital stay. I’ll be praying God fills you with peace and strength to get through.

    Now I’m off to read your about me page…

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    • seraireland

      She is quite adorable, our little Squishy.
      Thank you for your kind words. Yesterday was my mini pity party but its over. Today, I am feeling much better, except for a migraine I can’t get rid of. 🙂

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  • Lisa @ FSL

    Ugh… sorry you have to go through this… but! Kids are so great aren’t they?!? They know just how to cheer us up. I love that they love us so well despite ourselves. These pictures are adorable. Thank you for sharing your story at Life Through the Lens… it is a true picture.

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    • seraireland

      I sound like a baby because its not a major surgery. I thought I was past surgeries and such. It was just upsetting.
      I love sharing my blog with yours, its a lot of fun. It gives me something to look forwards to each week. Because I know people will look at my posts & pictures and they will comment. After all we all love comments. I just didn’t realize how much fun blogging would be.

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  • joanneviola

    Oh my gosh, she is so precious! It is amazing how kids can make us laugh & bring such joy at times we truly are finding it hard. Sorry that you must go through this. Before commenting, I prayed for you – may this process be easier for you.May our God help you, strengthen you & bring healing. So glad that I visited from Recommendation Saturday this morning.
    Blessings!
    Joanne

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    • seraireland

      Children are amazing. Thank you for visiting, your kinds words, and for praying for me. I know everything will be fine like so many times before. It was just hard to take because I know what is coming and what to expect.

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  • Renewed_Daily

    She is such a darling!!! My children are so caring and are often the source of my uplifted spirits. I can certainly relate to your condition and the dread of surgery. When the normal, everyday is many times overwhelming, adding another glitch just feels like too much. I will add you to my prayer list, and hope you keep in touch! So glad you linked up with Recommendation Saturday, so that we could meet! Heart Hugs, Shelly ❤

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    • seraireland

      Thank you. I visited your site and yes, you can really relate. I’m glad I found your site and link up. I plan on linking up lots more. Hope your week went well and you have a great weekend. 🙂

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  • elizabethbeautyobserved

    I am reading this on March 19 which is your surgery date. I am praying for your recovery!

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